The very thing you fight against,
Is the very thing you desire.
I may be keeping mum about it,
But inside, I am burning like a ball of fire.
Can I go on like this,
At the end of the day I have to decide.
I probably know the answer to this question
This I will have to someday, in you, confide.
I often end up asking myself,
Is this worth all mess in the head?
Why can’t it just stop,
And I can peacefully go to bed.
At times, there is so much to say,
But I stop myself before.
I could have said all those things,
But I don’t wish to hurt you more.
I am aware of my short-comings,
And I know I am not that good.
There is so much to change,
I just wish I could.
There are no expectations left,
And no demands shall follow.
The mind is far from rest,
And the inside is now hollow.
You can say whatever you want to,
I really don’t care what you think about me.
You know exactly when it’s right and when it’s not,
And that somethings aren’t just meant to be.
I try so hard,
But all my efforts go in vain.
I let myself care,
And all I feel is pain.